6 Months!

Today, we celebrate 6 months on the official wait list for our baby girl.

On one hand, 6 months seems like a long time. On the other hand, it seems like we’ve just begun.

When we first started this journey, I thought we might be “in the window”- or at least getting close- for a referral by this time. The average time to wait for a referral was about 8 months. But, things have slowed down since we started and the average time to a referral is now around 10 months (or more). It looks like we may have at least another few months before we will get that long awaited phone call.

Some days, I am very discouraged when I think about how  things are not going along as I had hoped. Mostly, the thing I’ve been praying for since the beginning is that we would make it through court before it closes for the rainy season (approx August until October). Now, it seems impossible.

I do believe that ALL things are possible with my God.

But, I also believe that He is in control whether He answers that prayer or not.

I know that there is so much more going on in this adoption journey that is yet unknown to us, but God has it all under control and He’s in the details.

He will bring us together when the time is right.

I have a book of scriptures that I’m keeping as I read my bible and when I’m feeling discouraged, I pull it out and read them to remind myself of the TRUTH.

Here’s a few:

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them. Psalms 145:18-19

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord! Psalms 31:24

Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul? Why are you crying the blues? Fix my eyes on God- soon I’ll be praising again. He puts a smile on my face. He’s my God. Psalms 43:5 MSG

God, the one and only- I’ll wait as long as he says. Everything I need and hope for comes from him, so why not? Psalms 62:1 MSG

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

The other thing that I’ve been thinking so much about and praying for is her birth mother. The longer we wait, the more I think about her. About the tragedy that she will face in her life that will turn into joy in my life. The deep sadness that I feel when I think about what she’s going through. The hard and terribly sad circumstances on the other side of the world that will bring my daughter and I together. I might try…but I can’t imagine what that would be like.

What if this mother just isn’t ready to say good-bye to her baby girl yet? When I think about that… and if that is indeed what is happening… I sure do feel selfish for wanting this process to hurry up so much.

No matter how long it takes, I’ll keep praying for her and the daughter that we will share heart ties to.

Every single day.

I’m happy to be another month closer to her.

I’m ready.

God is good. ALL the time.