Today marks 7 months on the wait list. In the beginning of this journey, I thought that my emotions would be so different at this point. I thought we would be getting very close to a referral by now. Which would mean LOTS of excitement around here!
But, things are much different than they were when we started. Things are moving very slowly. Instead of the excitement I thought I’d be feeling now, I’d say my emotions are mainly “cautiously optimistic”. I’m trying to remain positive and hopeful, but with that element of realism mixed in there too.
From the very beginning, we knew that things could change at any given time. But, honestly, we didn’t really expect it to.
I’m trying to shift my thinking to be more laid back about it. To not let thoughts of the little girl I’ve been dreaming about for about 18 months permeate every thought I have in my brain. I’m really trying, because it would sure make it easier on my heart. But, I’m not having much success. That may be easy for some, but I’m just not made up that way. I can’t just block out those feelings and hopes and dreams…. they are just too real and intense.
So, I’m praying constantly, trying to keep things in perspective, meditating on God’s truths, remembering that He is in control of all of it.
One thing is for sure though, however long it ends up taking, we are another month closer.
I’ll end with my life verse that I picked for myself when I gave my life to Christ at the age of 16.
Proverbs 19:21
“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”
2 comments:
It's not an easy journey, for sure. And it's not for the faint of heart...but I keep reminding myself that God has waited a lot longer for some of His children than I have...so He gets our anguish..and He won't leave us in this place forever.
I am praying for your family and believing for supernatural favor on your journey. God IS bigger.
The waiting is the worst! Praying for your family!
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