17

Today marks 17 months on the wait list. Our family is still super excited and anxious about when we will get our referral call.

At last report, the average wait time was up to 18 months, so we likely still have a decent amount of time to wait. There hasn't been much movement, as far as new referrals, in our agency in the past several months. It's hard and we don't understand, but we trust God's timing.
We're not giving up! We are still praying! And if I even try to forget to pray about our adoption and our little girl, the kids sure don't let me!
Lately, the boys have been asking questions about how we will handle it when we do get our referral. Will I come and check them out of school? Will they get to be home for the call?
I assumed Gracie didn't really understand any of those conversations.
On Sunday, she and I were alone walking in the Wal-Mart parking lot hand in hand and out of the blue she said, "Every time we get a call or a message in my classroom, I'm hoping it's for me to check out because we got our referral."
Talk about faith! Those kids are believing every single day that "today could be the day!"
I believed it for a while, and then when too many days came and went, that bold faith went too.
I think it's time for me to find that bold, crazy faith again!!
God has been so faithful to us through this whole, long process. He continues to be faithful to us. He's supplying abundant peace in the midst of uncertainty. Perhaps that is what I'm most thankful for. I'm not real happy with being faced with waiting even longer, and even more unhappy with still not having any clue when this chapter will close and the next chapter will begin. BUT, He has given me this peace that I didn't think possible. Our God is an awesome God! He is in control and we will follow where he leads.
I'm a planner and living last year on the fly, unable to plan anything too far in advance, was extremely hard for me. I was so glad to see 2011 end! But here I find myself... On the other side of that year... And in the same predicament! We were talking about Spring Break over the weekend and realized that we still can't really make any plans. I'm learning.
Life isn't about how well I can plan it all out and execute my perfect plans with precision. Goodness... Have I sure been learning that lesson! And it's not been fun either! Can I say that I'm better for it already though? Absolutely.
I'll end this month's post with the same feelings I always have. Hoping that this is the last one of it's kind!!
Amen!